I am, who I am, and no one can ever change me.
I am a Theistic Satanist. I spent several years in an oppressive household ran by Christian parents of the Extremist variety. Upon moving out I realized the world was not as they had said. As time wore on, I began to get less involved in any church activity anywhere, barely acknowledging I even owned a bible.
My wife, who had some previous Occult experience, decided one night to attempt some divination of some sort, awakening a spirit, that challenged me like I had never experienced. I switched to Christian mode almost instantly, threatening it, asking it if it knew who I was… As If being a Christian I was anything at all.. The answer I got was frightening, but at the same time, it was an opening of the Doorway that I have stepped through long ago. It basically stated, yes it knew WHO I really was, and it wasnt scared of me at all. This shook me to my core beliefs, and I couldn’t stay there like that.
I first found, as most Satanists do, the Satanic Bible. Now, this was intriguing I thought. I was amazed at the lack of any truth the Christian world new about what a Satanist was. As a little time went on, I realized there was something more, nothing purely of myself, but something Greater. I then, on the guidance of the same entity that originally interested me in Satanism, (interesting I might say) began to get online, looking around at different things referring to Satanism. I was shocked at the amount of Satanic related information that was online, and as my wife was at that time following me in this quest saw… Some of it wasnt pretty.
We ran across the Joy of Satan site in late 2009, what we saw first was the bashing of Christians, which we didnt mind, a somewhat well displayed theology, and a simple format. We began digesting Satanism, as defined by Joy of Satan, but then, we got heartburn.
My wife, who up until that time, had been moving along with me, was disgusted when she and I came across the Swastika. Our eyes shuddered as we ran into the pro-Hitler portion of JoS. The almost shocking experience was almost too much – While we both understood and still do, that hate is a valuable tool – but only when necessary… Yet these people were advocating the utter death of all Jews, and Christians. This wasnt empowerment and enlightenment…
My wife, although very supportive of me and my work, isn’t a Satanist herself. She studies the realms of psychic abilities, and the more evasive spiritual activity around us, and with her gift of a powerful sense of such things, she seems happy for now. I myself have remained a Satanist. I found Satan Himself. Couple that with the uncanny gift I have for learning rapidly, and something else I am working on, I fit into Theistic Satanism like a glove.
I am currently working on my own efforts inside Theistic Satanism,which have developed and changed as needed within the community. I work tirelessly to restore Satanism to it’s rightful place as Man’s way to Enlightenment and Empowerment.
Some of my projects, have been successful, and others died before they ever got off the ground – this is to be expected however, as we are a small community, and efforts easily poisoned.HAIL SATAN
James L. Nicholson II Temple of Theistic Satanism The Order of The Dragon Satanipedia