I am, who I am, and no one can ever change me.
I am a Theistic Satanist. I spent several years in an oppressive household ran by Christian parents of the Extremist variety. Upon moving out I realized the world was not as they had said. As time wore on, I began to get less involved in any church activity anywhere, barely acknowledging I even owned a bible.
My wife, who had some previous Occult experience, decided one night to attempt some divination of some sort, awakening a spirit, that challenged me like I had never experienced. I switched to Christian mode almost instantly, threatening it, asking it if it knew who I was… As If being a Christian I was anything at all.. The answer I got was frightening, but at the same time, it was an opening of the Doorway that I have stepped through long ago. It basically stated, yes it knew WHO I really was, and it wasnt scared of me at all. This shook me to my core beliefs, and I couldn’t stay there like that.
I first found, as most Satanists do, the Satanic Bible. Now, this was intriguing I thought. I was amazed at the lack of any truth the Christian world new about what a Satanist was. As a little time went on, I realized there was something more, nothing purely of myself, but something Greater. I then, on the guidance of the same entity that originally interested me in Satanism, (interesting I might say) began to get online, looking around at different things referring to Satanism. I was shocked at the amount of Satanic related information that was online, and as my wife was at that time following me in this quest saw… Some of it wasnt pretty.
We ran across the Joy of Satan site in late 2009, what we saw first was the bashing of Christians, which we didnt mind, a somewhat well displayed theology, and a simple format. We began digesting Satanism, as defined by Joy of Satan, but then, we got heartburn.
My wife, who up until that time, had been moving along with me, was disgusted when she and I came across the Swastika. Our eyes shuddered as we ran into the pro-Hitler portion of JoS. The almost shocking experience was almost too much – While we both understood and still do, that hate is a valuable tool – but only when necessary… Yet these people were advocating the utter death of all Jews, and Christians. This wasnt empowerment and enlightenment…
My wife, although very supportive of me and my work, isn’t a Satanist herself. She studies the realms of psychic abilities, and the more evasive spiritual activity around us, and with her gift of a powerful sense of such things, she seems happy for now. I myself have remained a Satanist. I found Satan Himself. Couple that with the uncanny gift I have for learning rapidly, and something else I am working on, I fit into Theistic Satanism like a glove.
I am currently working on my own efforts inside Theistic Satanism,which have developed and changed as needed within the community. I work tirelessly to restore Satanism to it’s rightful place as Man’s way to Enlightenment and Empowerment.
Some of my projects, have been successful, and others died before they ever got off the ground – this is to be expected however, as we are a small community, and efforts easily poisoned.
HAIL SATANJames L. Nicholson II Temple of Theistic Satanism The Order of The Dragon Satanipedia
I don’t believe in the trinity. I use to be Christian too, and I had an experience of something, an angel or entity, witnessing to me in my intuition. It told me that the trinity was a lead away from God, using a middle man named Jesus, and that this Jesus was really born like all of us were, in a womb.
I don’t believe in the trinity, the immaculate conception, or that Jesus came back to life. What I think really happened back in those times, is that Jesus was probably really sacrificed on the cross, however, he was incorrectly pronounced dead [really unconscious - he was a strong- a carpenter and survived his execution]. When Jesus was put into the tomb, he was unconscious, woke up, and being strong, moved the top of the tomb plate over and walked out of it. When he was seen again, he was considered a ghost.
So basically, this leads me to believe that Jesus is a magician, or was.
Jesus, now to me, is a person called the Son of God, invented to misdirect people from the true source of God, which at this point, I’m not sure what is, either Lucifer or God, but not this Jesus. I am just beginning to think that Lucifer is who began life here on Earth, and that he/she was not the evil, carnal mastermind the Christians have portrayed him as all through Christianity.
cool , I like this , I am also an theistic satanist , i like your posts , ave father satan \m/ -Magus Onyx
You’ve left christianity and become a theistic Satanist; in your view does the christian god/trinity still exist, and if so, as generally described by most versions of christianity (omnipotent, omniscient, etc.)?
I personally do not believe that the Judeo-Christian godhead exists in any form other than thought-forms. While some may not see this as possible, they have been able to take on a life of their own through thousands of years of millions of people adding power to them. I do not believe the Judeo-Christian system exists in any form other than imagined, and that Satan is something more along the lines of a many faceted deity, rather than a hard copy staple.
I look at Theism in a ‘here and now’ philosophy as well — It can also be described as such – Some day science MAY indeed prove the existence of the ‘spiritual’ in a way that shows it as a different dimension, rather than a realm of gods and goddesses. Should that happen I would be able to no longer be a Theist… I believe there to be other deities, and entities today, but as I said, they may be proven otherwise at some point.
I hope this may have answered your question – If not I would be happy to elaborate further.
“I personally do not believe that the Judeo-Christian godhead exists in any form other than thought-forms. While some may not see this as possible, they have been able to take on a life of their own through thousands of years of millions of people adding power to them.”
How does this happen — how are the mental thoughts and emotional beliefs of many people somehow transformed into “life?” Does the muslims’ “allah” also now have the same type of existence? Param Brahman?
“I do not believe the Judeo-Christian system exists in any form other than imagined, and that Satan is something more along the lines of a many faceted deity, rather than a hard copy staple.”
Why is what you refer to as “Satan” any different than the imaginary christian trinity? What is Satan’s purpose and motivation in general — anything beyond seeking veneration from humans?
“I look at Theism in a ‘here and now’ philosophy as well — It can also be described as such – Some day science MAY indeed prove the existence of the ‘spiritual’ in a way that shows it as a different dimension, rather than a realm of gods and goddesses. Should that happen I would be able to no longer be a Theist…”
Then why opt now to regard Satan as a spiritual being — why not go straight to considering it an extra-dimensional life form that has somehow managed to interact with our spacetime? Why do you define “Satan” by the collected thought-forms of the Abrahamic religions? Do you consider your theism similar in any fundamental way to the Temple of Set?
“My wife, who up until that time, had been moving along with me, was disgusted when she and I came across the Swastika. Our eyes shuddered as we ran into the pro-Hitler portion of JoS. The almost shocking experience was almost too much – While we both understood and still do, that hate is a valuable tool – but only when necessary… Yet these people were advocating the utter death of all Jews, and Christians. This wasnt empowerment and enlightenment…”
How do you reconcile the apparent conflict of these statements, with your use of a modified NSDAP eagle elsewhere on the web?
The modified eagle is something I have used before yes. The symbolism behind the eagle with outstretched wings is actually found in Ancient Assyrian, Babylonian, and Sumerian cultures. Even Kemet had a similar symbol — These ancient cultures however were not all ‘eagles’ and some where scarab beetles, globes, etc.. Many other nations through out history have used similar eagles, not just Nazi Germany.
The symbol I use personally, is something I found a long time ago, and merely recycled over time. I don’t use it as often as I used to though, as it does get confused with Nazi Symbolism to frequently for my taste.
Your point is well taken though –
Actually you are very mistaken. The swastika is an ancient symbol present in numerous and diverse cultures around the world, including the cultures of India, Asia, the Middle East, Europe and North America. It is a very spiritual symbol and the only reason Hitler stole it as he stole all of his symbols and ideas was because it is a symbol for good luck by people in both ancient and modern times.
su – means “good”
asti – means “to be, to exist”
ik – means “what is in existence, and will continue to exist”
a – denotes feminine gender
So “Swastika” means a ‘good existence’ that is not to be destroyed and that remains in a good condition. He went on to say that its deeper meaning is permanent victory.
In the context of the cultural origins of the swastika, this means the victory of dharma – the fundamental spiritual nature of humanity.
http://reclaimtheswastika.com/symbolism/
Thank you…
Father JP Vanir